Sweden, part 1

(My shiny new blog is down right now, I'll post here until it's fixed...)

I'm in Sweden. It's partly what I've expected, partly what I hoped for, and partly what I never wanted.
I spend my days with Annelie, but... it feels a little bit like we're standing on thin ice, two steps from each other. I'm afraid the ice could break anytime, and I'm afraid the ice would break if I do anything. I wouldn't mind falling into the icy water, but I don't want her to sink. I love her, and I want to do anything to make her happy - but I'm afraid, I'm not the guy she was waiting for. When I look at her, I feel like she wants to love me, she wants to return my feelings but she can't. She's not sure about me. It makes me sad to know I'm only making her life more troubled...
But I'm not chickening out.

All the burning bridges...

I've started to burn my bridges. Might take a while, but this might be the only way to stay sane.

I'll never forget her.

Happy birthday, Katrine!

I know you're still out there somewhere. Maybe you won't read this anytime soon, maybe you won't read this anytime at all. I miss you and I will ever.
These here are for you...

The Beautiful South: Rotterdam

"This could be Rotterdam or anywhere, Liverpool or Rome
Cause Rotterdam is anywhere, anywhere alone..."

Art Of Seduction

O really? Then, if those people love me all the way down to my toes, why don't I notice it?
Nevermind, random act of whining.

Dreams...

I dreamt with Katrine.
I was so sad to wake up from that dream.

New place

This is my first post since a looong time, also this is my new post from the new apartment...
Now, back to unpacking...