(My shiny new blog is down right now, I'll post here until it's fixed...)
I'm in Sweden. It's partly what I've expected, partly what I hoped for, and partly what I never wanted.
I spend my days with Annelie, but... it feels a little bit like we're standing on thin ice, two steps from each other. I'm afraid the ice could break anytime, and I'm afraid the ice would break if I do anything. I wouldn't mind falling into the icy water, but I don't want her to sink. I love her, and I want to do anything to make her happy - but I'm afraid, I'm not the guy she was waiting for. When I look at her, I feel like she wants to love me, she wants to return my feelings but she can't. She's not sure about me. It makes me sad to know I'm only making her life more troubled...
But I'm not chickening out.
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