Higher....

We walked the narrow path,
beneath the smoking skies.
Sometimes you can barely tell the difference
between darkness and light.
Do you have faith
in what we believe?
The truest test is when we cannot,
when we cannot see...

The first package arrived safely - she got her letter, her book, and her mic, and then I could hear her voice for the first time. Now I have one more thing to love in her - not that I have to look for reasons.

There will be difficulties, of course. First, the two gaps - the age and the distance. By the time we fully overcome the second, I think there won't be any problem with the first. We will argue on unimportant things of course, because she will have her own opinion, I will have mine, and we won't give them up. But that's why will it be so good. I don't want her to be someone who always do as I say. I want her to say no if she doesn't want to do something. I want her to have her own opinion, and if it differs from mine, it might show an opportunity to see something from different views. I'd like to meet some of her friends, because they are important for her, and I hope I can get out with them well (I've already had some talks with Kizzy, and so far I think we'll be okay), but if she doesn't want me to meet some of them, it's fine. I'd like her to meet some of my friends, though it would be tricky because of the distance (and because some of them can't speak danish or english). There will be debates about where, because she has a life there and I have a life here.

But none of these difficulties can make me stop trying. None of these can make me even start to think about if she worth it. If I'd have to walk there by feet, I'd be already buying shoes for the trip.

Two more weeks and I'll start at work. Three more weeks and I'll so envy londoners. About four more months, and I'll be the happiest guy in Europe. Or on the Earth. I wish I would win the lottery so I could go sooner - but chances are really low, because I don't do the lottery.

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Guild Wars. My third priority nowadays. (Friends are the second. Those who know who's the first probably read the other posts or talked to me in the past weeks.) We have a nice and friendly guild (the almighty Psycho Bunnies), we joined to an alliance lead by the Chosen of Grenth - and, thanks to my selfproclaimed ambassadorship, we probably will ally with Gameamp Guides, the guild behind one of the well-known Guildwars themed sites. (They are even an official fan page and there's a link to their site from Guildwars.com. Though forging the alliance wasn't without complications, I think it will be very entertaining and fruitful for everyone.

Oh, and it turned out that one of our newest members is the funniest goth mother I've ever met, who likes to clean, cook, make sweets, play wargames and guildwars. And I'm still in love with Katrine, which means a.) there's another friend living in London, b.) as it was already obvious, I love Katrine. It's not just an inflatuation, it's not mixing up friendship with love.

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here.