The thin ice...

If you should go skating
On the thin ice of modern life
Dragging behind you the silent reproach
Of a million tear stained eyes
Don't be surprised when a crack in the ice
Appears under your feet...

Things are... not so solid. I can cope with success or failure. What I can't cope with is uncertainty. When I know something's good or bad, it's okay. When I don't know about it, it scares the crap out of me. Especially when other things are go bad. Especially when it seems a friend just blocked me with no reasons. (Though she hasn't, it was just a weird joke of MS.) Especially when all my plans are foiled. When I can't keep a promise because of others' meddling.
Especially when my father gets to a point that makes me want to move away right now.
Especially when my badly chosen words makes someone upset - even though I never meant to.
Especially when I don't know what's happening with Katrine...
Especially when I don't get any feedback or responses from where I need them.

You slip out of your depth and out of your mind
With your fear flowing out behind you
As you claw the thin ice.

And what's left? One word:

Hopefish...